

Awake..It's over..I'm alive..she's alive...I'm changed.. Jana's changed.
It was not hard to make this decision to help someone in desperate need. It is hard to grasp the reality that if I didn't do this Jana may have died too soon. To be part of something that huge has still not hit me. I think if I would have walked closer to her painful journey last year I would understand more deeply of what this new life for Jana feels like and looks like. I get a glimpse of that pain in the tears of her friend's eyes when they meet me and thank me for what I gave. For me I was just reacting to God's voice in my thoughts of
WHAT IF? What if I am a match and I didn't know it? What if I get to heaven one day and I see my life shown before me and the things I did and realize what I could have been part of , but missed out. What if I was too fearful to trust God and miss the blessing of His plan for me and for Jana. IF I step out in faith knowing that God ultimately knows who her match is, I can step out boldly knowing that it will be decided for me.


Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10
A new life has began in Jana and a different life for me that if not for my pain and scars, I wouldn't notice. We rejoice each appointment that Jana's new kidney is performing greater than expected and that my lone kidney is performing as if there were still 2. When I heard those results it was like a gift back to me and the Lord saying "See I've got you covered, well done believing in Me"
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At our post operation 2 week apt. Our Transplant was #1062 |
Jana's husband Dave did a wonderful job capturing his thoughts from their perspective.
Grab a tissue and read about it. I also love the song by Meredith Andrews You're Not Alone which I posted below.
Courtney,
ReplyDeleteIt was so very inspiring to read your words today on your blog...to really get inside of your mind and heart to feel what you felt, know the questions that were with you before you went to the hospital..
to all of us on the outside, looking in , you are a true heroine, blessing Jana with the continuation of her rich life knowing that it could have been cut short at any time without your totally selfless gift!!!.
You rock!!!
Jan Consoli
WOW--words are so inadequate to describe the depth of my thankfulness, and the hope I have because of your sacrificial gift of life for me! Each day I wake up I am overwhelmed with what has taken place. This year has been such a challenge with so many struggles and disappointments when person after person was rejected. But I had a legion of wonderful Godly friends that were praying for me, and that gave me the hope I needed to cling to. Then an angel who was willing to listen and respond to God's voice was the miraculous answer to prayer. I am so thankful I am part of this story--knowing God is going to use it to touch people's lives is such a blessing. I am changed forever!
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