Thursday, November 3, 2022

The Kids are Gone What Next

Pondering What Was and Looking Forward to What’s Next

The last few months I have been doing a lot pondering of this phase in my life. We get to this season where the house is not bustling with kids, meal making is smaller, the calendar is not full of sports, school events, play dates and all the things that parents do. Holidays seem less exciting, the rooms are empty and nothing seems normal.  

Though our new roles from afar seem important and needed, our conversations are less frequent yet rich in content and guidance. The hardest part of this season is I loved the last season. I loved having them here with us and the full house and laughter, conversation and coming home from the day’s events. I’d be remiss if I didn’t think of the hard times too, the places where parenting rocked my world and my eyes burned from tears.  

This weird space of time past and where we are in the middle of all the changes of our family and watching it all play out, wondering what the future holds for them and us.  Thankfully I’m not overly sad, lonely, bored or depressed but it’s an adjustment for sure and one I’m okay resting in and waiting for what God has next for me.  

I’m learning it’s okay to rest and sit in our changes it’s okay to ponder things, reflect and wait on His timing. I could fill up my days with busy things, mindless things to get my thoughts off what is, but I know that would not be healthy.   Deep down I know I will be okay, I will find the new rhythm of life but for now I’m in this place of reflection and thankfulness of what was and waiting for what will be. It’s okay to take time to ponder and even grieve what feels hard and a loss of something that was. ~Courtney

Psalm 139;23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.

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